The Bliss

life is really rough, i know.

but i always believe a well done meal can soothes the soul and prepares it for the next round of tough fight.

went to Hot Jack along Jalan Pasir Puteh this afternoon and the meal cheered me up almost instantly.

i’m not a foodie so here’s a real foodie’s review:

Motormouth from Ipoh

 

what i know is, the honey lemon tea was so authentic and flavourful you can see the pulps.

Also,the Bratwurst,tomatoes and casper tomatoes spaghetti and the Duo Salmon were both exciting combinations that really please the taste buds.

well, thanks to Kyle’s recommendation. (ok i know, going there was a spontaneous decision, double date next round ok?)

it’s not easy to find such worthy meals.

 

other things that keep me going (and hoping) are mails from online purchases.

(ops!)

look what’s in the mail:

 

it’s wan wan’s latest comic!!

i waited for it to come to malaysia’s Popular but it never came (until now =_= )

so i chose to buy it online from Eslite 诚品, the famous taiwanese bookstore.

and didn’t regret at all! coz mine was the taiwan published first edition, which has limited edition transparent book cover decoration sticker!

(ha! i know that’s a mouthful but yes!)

look!

 

 

my book cover!!

 

the other day i went to Popular again and i saw the comic finally came in. it’s in simplified chinese. but it doesn’t have the limited edition sticker. ahha!

well if you want to know, the literal translation to the comic title is “ can we/i continue to be childish?”

basically it’s about how she sees life in a more humorous and less serious perspective.

i know. it fits perfectly, right?

we all need it.

*cheers!*

So you did it..

So you did it..

and im damn pissed off..

it is totally another issue showing off/flaunting, whether you ‘have it or not’..coz it is just about choosing to embarrass oneself..

but it is one hell of an issue for being proud by not obeying rules and being inconsiderate..

why?? coz the pair of stupid aunties in front of me just parked their car at the designated parking space for the disabled..and happily came in to have their McDs.

[i am here coz my housing area is under maintenance for the electricity.]

i was eye-examining them,seeing whether they are crippled,dumb,mute,or amputated and whatnots. NO.

dont tell me: there are no disabled people here wad?

fxxx.

so what if a real disabled came and was searching for the space?you immediately go out and move your car? i doubt so!!!!!

same as those ‘thick-face’ people i talked about with my friend the other night. he said: their skin is thicker than the truck’s/trailer’s tyres!

just because you want those ‘benefits’ you do something as shameless as that!

eg:

1. some stuff that you clearly know (and the staff knows too!) you’re way over the insured or ‘claim’/ ‘exchange’ period and you went over to make a big scene out of it just to get what you wished for,without paying anything. then proudly tell people your ‘thick-face skill’.

2. violate the rules (especially on the road) and proudly tell people you can do that,and not get caught.

DONT DO THINGS THAT YOU DONT WANT OTHERS TO DO UNTO YOU!!

1. you think you’re so clever in claiming your ‘benefits’/ ‘rights’? then let others do the same to you (especially if you’re doing business too!) let’s wait and see who will help you when you’re in a real poor state! sendiri yang cari pasal je..

2. the rules have their own reason to be there! if you violate people’s rules then wait and see when people will violate yours! especially those who uses phones without handsfree while driving. tu lah pasal accident kat jalan! siapa yang susah nanti??

the most recent news on the summons deadline is the same.

and also saw a comment on The Star Newspaper: gave you 6 MONTHS to pay your summons and only went over to the hellish,crowded counters on the last day trying to pay,and when the system is down due to the heavy traffic (caused by YOU YOURSELF!!), and you DARE to complain about the ineffectiveness of the authorities!!

i saw with my own eyes, the uncle said loudly: of coz it is down la..use such an old useless system.. useless.. (when,apparently when i went to the counter to register as a voter-yes finally-the computer wasnt even an old one! it was a new flat-screened one! what?you want a glass/ touch screen one??!!)

and i even saw so many with a THICK stack of summons! and you wonder why they are still on the road!! dont follow rules and cause accidents,and then the blaming game starts. so whose fault is it now? (even the rasuah thing is what you started ok. cant you just pay your summons and learn the lesson??!!)

and now you wonder why some say: first class facilities,third class mind set. and you still dare to blame that on others.

never mind that. the karma goes around.

so may god/buddha bless you!!

Bless you..

[delayed post]

im holding my sneezes and watery+sleepy eyes to write these..

(ya bless me)

 

so recently there’s this ‘wave’ in FB/news about this guy who committed suicide coz of a break up of a girl who didnt even appreciate him..

and until now,i didnt make any comment or stuff regarding this piece of news..

BUT,i did see two sides of responses in FB/news. one, of coz, showing sympathy and all..

but it’s the other side of the response that caught my attention and both came from my FB friends..

mainly,they’re asking people not to ‘promote’ for this guy which, in turn will promote the thought of suicide. said, he didnt die for his country in line of duty (which not many of us seem to commemorate),and not that he died while protecting his then gf..plus,said,he hvnt even repay what his parents gave him all these years,and leaving behind sadness and a mess to deal with..

(this is from a friend)

 

and YOU think?…..

i DO feel sad for his family and friends,who’d lost a son/friend..

very very sad..i DO..

there’s just NO POINT committing suicide, if YOU are thinking about it now.. really..not only the above reasons but,the obvious truth is, he/she DOESNT WORTH IT and why the hell many people still dont understand this?not like he/she is gonna come back after you commit suicide..and like another friend of mine said, if he lived long enough after this,he could have figured he was stupid doing all these..

 

i thank Him for holding me and pull me back into the circle..i admit if it was not the religion,i could have done this so.really. and it’d be such a sin.

 

i even stopped or held back on sharing all these love notes on FB..mainly becoz i felt,what’s the point?so what do you actually learn through it?each and everyone is just unique..do you expect if you abide by all the said rules you will get what you want? basically yes,but dont forget he/she is still a human,a person,a unique person. if you’re so keen,why dont you just get a psychology/sexology self-help book?..

[and to YOU,if YOU still believe it,YOU’re so damn naive i am not holding this sentence back yes.]

 

on a lighter note,BUSY life recently so forgive me if i’m not replying you anything. super busy,be it major or minor.

good thing is,it pulled me off those nasty lil emo thoughts.

[and that explains why i only blog NOW,holding my achoo and sleepy-ness back.]

Major is,busy building my ‘career base’ (which,by the way,involves wasting half a day filling in forms with tons of info,attachments,and miscellaneous verifications that nearly made me slam my stuff on my table)

Minor is,busy fulfilling tasks and appointments.

ah,which reminds me i have to do data-entry job for my dad. T_____T *tragic*

oh but actually i just got back from brunch with Big Bro and lil Sis =D went to Old Town (the REAL one ont he street) for fried noodles and then Jelapang for rojak. ‘siblings’ being ‘siblings’,so much fun LOL..

and that explains why NOW im truly sleepy~~~~~(and it’s raining now..)

=_____= so, off to my bed..

Secret code of love <3 爱的暗号

[not so sweet after all, a mind-disturbing post]

 

between true lovers, puppy-lovers,secret lovers,husbands and wives, third-party idiots and different types of couples..

each has some kind of secret code of love..

it could be the common Terms of Endearment or actions or any special figures..anything special for the two..

the point is, these secret codes of love, they do not only exist as a physical consolation, but much of a deeper sense of belonging..belonging to the person..

for an example, when the basterd is busy with work or, in some worse cases, busy with the biatch on the other side, you will still somehow feel contented and all calm from the fire of frustration just now when he just simply calls your secret nick or does something which is your secret code of love, like, suddenly turn around and have a quick sniff of your unique scent..

(well if the basterd is doing this when he is with the biatch then, well, FYL. you never know, dont you?)

 

ah, so that’s all for today’s mind-disturbing post.

excuse me.

a lil jap kinda leisure..

so banked in the cheque and fixed the line..thought of buying the mooncake but then didnt turned out so..

 

so went ahead to buy sushi and KFC hot&spicy nuggets for Doraemon movie session..glad for the enjoyment..=)

 

oh talk about outing, while waiting for the Hot&Spicy nuggets to be done, the cashier gave us each a cup of soft drinks =D

 

isnt that warm or what? now that’s really some PR and customer relation thing. =p

 

i know life can be very hard..but, isnt it a lil too hard? but anyhow, i dont worry about it that much now..i kept telling myself, doesnt matter, coz when the time comes, i will do what i have to do..no hesitation, no regrets.. (since it had  more than enough time and reasons for it to be so)..so maybe i can say, the routes are clearer now =)

 

so what’s next? =) Piranha ??

crap and non-crap,yea..

crap: thought of blogging for Merdeka day and the Private Affair, but then, did NOT happen. =_=”

 

non-crap: (less crappy i guess) had the Pizza Hut birthday dinner, which was pretty full.. =0=”  i was almost in a very difficult situation to walk and i kept silent-burping (excuse me..but yea you wouldnt hear me doing that hahahahaha) all the way after the dinner til home =.=”

okay sorry i should stop these unappetising topic..

 

erm so, as people say, as you grow older, what you ask for (like presents??) will become less..erm i did make a birthday wish in front of the ‘cake’ (ahem)..but wondering whether it will realise?haha..probably what i asked for is too..erm..let’s just say, priceless? haha..

 

ah enough crap..g’night peeps..

 

p/s: argh ulcer..*sigh*..

but,sadly..

at a place where i can stir many beautiful rumours BUT, SADLY, no, it’s not true LOL!

 

absolutely happy BUT, SADLY, the dark clouds still came into my mind straight afterwards =_=…..

 

was with the old folks there..so happy joining them in the photoshoot..BUT,SADLY, i know this happen only for some reason..and it could very possibly be only temporary..

 

was very happy when the old folks asked to join for dinner with VVIP in the family @.@ BUT, SADLY, again, i know this happen only for some reason..and it could very possibly be only temporary..@.@

 

i dont know..im so occupied with the ‘BUT,SADLY’ thing that i think im getting insane..very very insane , in fact..

AIH..

weekend~~<3

its only when you start working that you feel the significance and importance of weekend..as in, whoever kacau your lovely weekend plan/prog will be immediately executed, i mean, depending on the issue which kacau you tho..LOL!

ops,sorry..have been insane since long LOL!

okay anyway yesterday went for some makan and movie session,watched The Last Airbender which is not bad, but its only the water nation chapter =.= hmmmm..

and then today, made these:

 

ah failed,seriously..=( but they HAVE the ‘look’ and ‘shape’ ..

ish..

********************

 

well was day dreaming when i suddenly remembered a former housemate’s (in fact, very very former =_= )saying..

he was in the living room and was telling me, what you’ve done to a person, it will be repaid on you..whether sooner or later..whether you stole it, taken it, or hurt the person.

and that, is when he was getting  THE ‘paid back’..imagine that..=_=

i’ve always said,karma..

i know i kept to myself alot lately..i seriously dont wanna say anything before something is solid or so..you can say im shy,a coward or anything..but im not gonna say anything yet..at least not now..seriously distraught..

but i will do what i think i have to do..

EOS

消极

消极是吗？

我，也可以很消极。。

或者，已经很消极。。

也或者，我已经痛到麻木了。。

心酸心痛，看时间没差，就去睡了。。

却一直在心里呐喊。。不停的呐喊。。

睡醒了，若是早上，又会对新的一天有恐惧。。

若是下午，就像今天一样，麻木的，没感觉的。。

 

头发还是一直掉。。还有可能药不对。。多希望那天他们说我的结果是阳性的，‘荣获’癌症。。那不就什么都不用理了嘛。。慢慢等死。。连药都不用吃多好。。

 

*每一点一滴，都让我怀念那些日子*

 

凌晨四点

睡不着了。。

昨晚九点半，被拒之门外之后，就哭着睡着了。。

到现在。。

黑黑的。。冷冷的。。

 

[截取，没有针对任何人，不要对号入座]

“厉害，不是因为说分手而毁了一个人。。

厉害，是因为从一开始就不该开始。。开始玩弄着他。。”

“并不是合适不合适。。

而是在于你是否认真地对待。。

凭良心地对待，善良地对待。。

奉承祂的每一个教诲，实行。。

更不要一时头昏过了头，

胡乱的作孽。。”

 

“孩子，不要怪祂没有保护你。。

要怪你自己没有相信祂。。

没有听到祂的声音。。

若黑暗降临，要哀悼，

一天，一晚。。够了。。

并不是黑暗庞罩，而是你不让黑暗的雾飞走。。

为何拉着黑暗的雾不放手呢？

祂的光，又怎能进来呢？”

 

 

看完了。。

我还在这里。。

静静的。。

习惯了静静的躲在角落。。

静静地望着自己喜欢的。。

<3 to <3

well~~

hmm~~

this would be a booooooooooooring post..=_=

well actually before this i was gonna talk bout parents nagging COZ I JUST GOT ONE MYSELF *grumpy face*

but well, you know you got it through as you grow up and you know your parents are just nasty on their mouths but not in their hearts so yea you just know what to do to keep them happy so settled.

 

[now before you continue, this is seriously NOT about me being personal ,mind you , im just being general and stating it very factually,logically,practically. end of story.]

 

NOW

 

i’ve got a real <3 to <3 issue..

 

well its just not about me but a real factual thing to think about (oh that rhymes doesnt it?)

 

so i saw two things, actually..

one, is being that

the one whom you love, might not love you;

the one who loves you, might not be the one whom you love;

but the one whom you will be marrying, would neither be the one whom you love or loves you, but could just appeared at the right time..

(oh wow i can translate so well *self-boasting sheepish face*)

this is so. so. so. so. so. saddening kay?

aih..this is actually a quite well known saying (dont know from who)..but my friend said its also about oneself, whether he or she chooses to give up or to hold on dear to it..like, if you treasure him or her so much..

 

then came the second one,

being,

girls generally mature earlier than guys..

so being together at the same age actually poses dangers like the girls would have been thinking about future in uni years while the guys just wanna have fun until they start working.

so it seems they chose to ditch and get new sparks in their life. long term gf then is boooring to them. by that time, the guys learnt how to tolerate from the ex(es) and treated the girl well..and then soon the time comes for them to build a family..

and so they say its like a school for the guy whereby they ‘studied’ and ‘graduated’.

OR, somehow they just regretted they lost that girl,that girl has already married some stable guy by the time they realise their gems within. (okay dont think the other way round!)

well.

arent that saddening as well?

this also depends whether the girl or guy decides to hold on to it..which, is so so saddening-ly rare.

 

well sometimes you feel like slapping your partner (or in other cases, yourself) questioning why would they wanna leave you this long-term-plus-WAS-going-to-get-married bf/gf? but well, timing. (as they like to say)

hmm..well..well..

 

gosh, again, who on earth made this love thingy so complicated??

sheesh!

okay end of story for tonight.

(psst!..they say FIFA Finale is on 12th..so?)

Ipoh

yup..im now back in Ipoh..for long term..

well, how should i say,

i miss the convenience of touch n go and transportation and big beautiful buildings and nice stuff to shop for and the touch of urbanism =_=

and i miss uni-years..they are definitely the best years so far..when you’re mature but you’re still studying..

most of all i miss being in that house/room..lots of memories..

BUT

i love my sweet home too..and my family..

so anyway, i got back yesterday and used a loooooooooooong time to settle my room..i threw alot fo stuff..but also saw a big chunk of sweet memories ..

i can only sigh..aih..

i can only pray now..that all that ive wished would come true..

planned to revamp my blog but no inspiration now..

yes..i m determined  to blog more..haha..

ah right, i know its a boring post but i m not ready yet maybe..

alot of stuff to ditch..~!@#$%^&*() ..

ok bye..

回忆

每一件事，都有开始和结束，或至少，转折点。。
而人，往往对这些开始和结束，觉得难以释怀，总认为，为什么，尤其美好的事和物都不能永久。。
但从来我们就被训说，
“平常心”。。
一直以一切皆为平常的心态，对待每一件事。。
世上唯一不变的就是改变。。
可能会更好，可能会更坏，
该来的都会来，而该走的都会走，
说是容易，做，可是很难。。

但不要忘记，永远有希望。。。。。在明天。。。。。

it’s over

thanks alot, mum, and my family..that is what family for..right?and friends, you all should feel relieved and happy for me now, arent you all?im fine =) thanks!

[emo post, keep away] lately..

 

 

 

 

~have i told you lately, that i love you~

the song..

 

well..to be frank, it still bothers me really much..

but as a big girl, i have to learn to control..

there shouldnt be only one thing in life that i should look forward to..

if that is what people want, then we shouldnt manipulate as it wont do any good..

so to say the other way round, we must control and improve ourselves..

exercise the most of the calmness, rationality, or say, the highest EQ..

as if lah i am that good =.=

but yea, im trying..im a virgoan aint i?

 

peace, life~

pure crap..go away..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

guess it would be ages before you come across this post..

i just need a channel to express or i would go crazy along with the workload..

while ‘it’s’ happening, i suddenly thought of how would ‘our anniversary’ or my birthday be this year?

a. celebrating with friends, only

b. celebrating with you

c. celebrating with you and friends

d. all alone at home, being depressed..

i dont know..

or would ‘our anniversary’ even be there for us to celebrate?

no idea..

now i hate everything triangles..and threeS..

i can immediately smash it..

yea, love is blind. duh.

 

to be really frank? control, control~~

its the ugly truth..

to be really frank?(okay..)

work is..well..a torture..but *yeu* advised me to stay on and encouraged me and supported me..thank *yeu*..

relationship is also ..well.. complicated.. =_=  is this called true love?

and, to be really frank? (uhuh..)

it hurts me alot..  i’ve fallen..

then, to be really frank? (yea..)

i even accepted all these junks altogether..they are hinting me to control myself, as what my faith has asked me to do, and not to do stupid things anymore..karma..karma, darling!

so, to be really frank? (right..)

CONTROL MYSELF~~

 

p/s: thanks *yeu* for bringing me out for dinner and movie last night..i know *yeu* tried to cheer me up after all these junks..i know *yeu* are making ways to save this..i know..and im doing my part too..again, thanks *yeu*.

<3

你

我还记得

你第一次写我们的日记时。。

我还记得

你晚上看我先睡着了

会帮我盖被然后亲我

叫我要乖乖休息

有时在我身旁抱我

 

我也看到

现在你会把我爱的小抱枕

和小被

塞给我

然后叫我睡好

 

我记得我们吃饭的笑话

 

我记得你的手掌

牵我走过

难过的地方

 

我记得你一边的椅子

我常常坐在那边

陪你吃饭看戏

每天都会有一集

 

现在，我依然陪着你

坐在你身后

默默的疼你

需要时支持你

不必要时静静地在自己的区域。。

crap

never mind what i did..coz it doesnt matter in the end..shits still happen…to a dumbass like me..

they went off..

why are goodbyes so hard to say to people who mean so much to us..

housemates moved today coz they decided to move after the new landlady took over..tho its jus few streets away, i cant ‘kacau’ them when im home anymore..

the whole house will now have only my bf , me and another friend of ours..

the point is, again, why do goodbyes go so hard on us every time..

why..