warning...a depressing piece...

i was so depressed...after all i've read through,been through,seen through,and thought through....



i know there will be some times when you don't understand people and you're not understood by people...



but it's like when i tried the final effort, i gave up......i guess i go depressed?...


that's why most of the times i go.... err....independent...



i guess i can be as cold-blooded or as friendly as i 'decided',sometimes......*sigh*...but not every move is appreciated,of course...



even when i want to lower my depression,by sorting out the problematic point,i cant...'coz i cant...'coz nobody willing to help....i mean,think of the 'suitable' person....if you get it... argh..


so then i ask in prayer(then again...alone)seeking calmness,comfort..realisation...whatever....



one thing that doesnt get bothered is my will to perfect things up including myself...



so there i go again,thinking what's wrong with me...that drove me into these...




thinking,if i dont ever give,i wouldnt get hurt...would i?but i gave, at the end...i thought it would do good to everyone....

*****cut*****


this is soooooo depressed....



as i look into a book of death(when we die)....uhuh...it struck something but i know im not yet there....



plus,i read another article about how this harm you and how that harm you....argh!!!so it's like, we're going to die no matter how...*puff*



and i was like,nothing interesting or quality to post....and the blog rink seemed so quiet...yeah it's holiday....two months and we'll be back in the ever busy town...



"we must appreciate every opportunity and relationship, because that's what's precious we're left with,in the end..."
-viv

i miss you guys....*sob..* ='( but i dont miss you!!! >.< no,i dont want to. grrrr!!!!

*sob..sob..sob..*


*pff*let me go and plan my schedule for the coming week...