unfortunate?too much...

i was extremely depressed..near to break down...there was sooo many unfortunate things happened to me recently...made my mood bad even i've controlled it...i wasn't like that!!!!!!!!!!!

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there's one time that i got over these very quickly.....with all those philosophies and beliefs....


i thought i had found it....source of suffer whatever...and practiced it....


i was all calm and like everything can be achieved...



i know what to do and i know how to do.....



now,i would say:
urgh! WHAT'S WRONG??!! WHAT'S HAPPENING??!! this is just TOO MUCH!!!!

(and now i couldn't even post properly!)


i'm suspecting feng shui i tell you...(hmmm...)



not that i'm very superstitious....but i felt that feng shui must have had a reason to be so popular and sought after, and also called


Chinese Metaphysics....



the harmony of the eviron...they say...

well, i do understand a teeny bit of the logic here...(i'm a chinese ain't i?)



you see, logically, you 're sure to not put a huge flower pot in the middle of the flight of stairs, aren't you? because you will be obstructed more or less by that obstacle. It is as simple as that. ( I mean...as logically as i can get...not all those: put a pot of fish here, golden prosperity cat there..)



just like colours, ther are calming colours and all...so,logically, you can FEEL what colour suits you...(if,logically...)



it is because how you feel from the look of the environ affects you...if it's harmonious.you will feel alright...(but i dont feel that now!!)



and now i seriously need to watch my mouth!! i felt i talked too much and very unconstructive!




THAT'S, the other thing i learnt....silence,observe,process,evaluate,regroup,conclu...the fundemental parts....(ya know,together with all the sources of suffrence..).....




life have never been better for me..(NOT...)



urgh...izzit a test for me?i'm not sure i can pass through it....i'm sorry!!...(shouting to the meta-space =.=")...





guess i should stop looking into the horoscope too....





and i don't get a new phone while my dad and brother gets it...why la..THAT, not that i insist...just ..ask..





and to add up,just now, i opened my friendster profile page...the 'about me' content was 'copied' to my media box....

automatically i deleted the codes in the media box that appeared...it WAS cleared...even the 'post shoutout' box was cleared since hearing so many virus-y codes around..even went to the help section to look at FAQ..

BUT IT STILL APPEARS LIKE THAT!!!!!!!!!!!(although the codes in the boxes are now cleared)

can anyone help me???? ="(

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yeah,i know, you'll say i'm sucha paranoid...